Just two days left for my first term examinations...and I'm still on a trauma from where to start studying. From last 5 months, I have got a hell-lot of concepts in my mind....in class 10 also, so many were not there. Seriously, such a big gap between 10 & 11! In Chemistry, one 'Atomic structure' only has so many concepts-Rydberg's constant, Wavelength & frequency of photon, electronic configuration of the basis of s,p,d,f shells (forget the knowledge about K,L,M,N), Quantum & Quantum numbers (couldn't understand still what is proton, neutron & electron and this crap arrived),etc. And Chemistry still I can pass...but Physics...Oh My God!! I am getting fucked up with it, especially the numericals. These numericals are like no appliance of direct formula..it's all about logic....even Maths sums are not so tough! And failing in physics can be a possibility!!
I am seriously feeling like laughing 'cause I'm someone whose gonna pursue Engineering, that also Software...and in first exam of Physics only I am pissed off. And I have also seen some foolish & childish dreams also till now of becoming a world famous scientist and discovering some fantastic machine. Actually, many things are going round me-one of them is also that whether I'll stay in Science stream for so long. And even if I survive in 11, what will happen to me in 12? Over there, I'll have double the syllabus of 11, and just 6 months will be there to finish it...'cause I'm gonna face Boards....and if I survive Boards, I'll have to crack Joint Entrance Exam to get admission in a good college....and as you know, college & school-huge difference! In college, I'll first of all get ragged terribly by the seniors, then studies will just chop me off, and time will be just flying away...not be able to catch it also. Oh God! Life is totally full of tensions...and I can't die also just like that to overcome this tensions.
You know what? Sometimes, I think that my parents, especially my mom, did not take care of the fact of how should I study. Till Class-4, she used to teach me alone, and her method was rote learning-only to learn what is given in the notes, and not understanding anything...that's how I used to study. And then came another messy thing in my life- TUITIONS. Okay, till the time she used tot teach me alone, everything was still fine...but I don't know from which day she became so casual. She became fully dependant on tuition for making me study...okay, that's fine, she was doing this to make me grow up....one day, I have to study on my own will and no parent will come to ask what I'm studying. But now, it's becoming too much....she's only dependant on tuitions now. For an easy subject like English also, she wants to give me tuitions...and I get very angry, if she tells me to join Aakash and all those high-class coaching centers. Dude, I WANT TO STUDY ON MY OWN....IT'S MY LI8FE, MY WISH! Why will you people decide what I will be?
Another big mistake I did was not studying in an ICSE school. Yup, I did study in Rammohan Mission till 4th Grade, but I left it due to pressure and time regarding problems (I really miss my friends over there till now). But now i regret going to CBSE. Yup, I know Indus Valley Word School sparked out the smartness within me...or else I would not be able to use the keyboard also for typing this blog. But still it made me somewhat 'Casual' in life. The thing which I should have done was till Class-10, I should've studied in ICSE (I would have gone to some other school also), and then...CBSE!! In ICSE, no matter how much pressure I had, my base regarding Science would have been clear...I would have suffered the danger named 'Board Exams' also...but, then in 11-12 CBSE, everything would have been crystal clear for me-no tension for giving competitive exams further. But, as you know, what I wish for never happens...or else I would have not written all these blogs!!
And you know another thing....I am currently watching Anime once again during exam time.....the same mistake which I did during the pre-boards this year!! Sometimes, I think I am the one who is responsible for the problems I'm writing about in these blogs....no matter how much childish or matured I am. Anyways, as I said before, life is full of obstacles, and I've to take the challenge to overtake them. Perhaps, whatever I did or whatever happened with me in my life till now is for my good future only. Anyways, in Boards or Entrance exams, no CBSE or ICSE will matter, only our knowledge will.
You know what? Sometimes, I think that my parents, especially my mom, did not take care of the fact of how should I study. Till Class-4, she used to teach me alone, and her method was rote learning-only to learn what is given in the notes, and not understanding anything...that's how I used to study. And then came another messy thing in my life- TUITIONS. Okay, till the time she used tot teach me alone, everything was still fine...but I don't know from which day she became so casual. She became fully dependant on tuition for making me study...okay, that's fine, she was doing this to make me grow up....one day, I have to study on my own will and no parent will come to ask what I'm studying. But now, it's becoming too much....she's only dependant on tuitions now. For an easy subject like English also, she wants to give me tuitions...and I get very angry, if she tells me to join Aakash and all those high-class coaching centers. Dude, I WANT TO STUDY ON MY OWN....IT'S MY LI8FE, MY WISH! Why will you people decide what I will be?
Another big mistake I did was not studying in an ICSE school. Yup, I did study in Rammohan Mission till 4th Grade, but I left it due to pressure and time regarding problems (I really miss my friends over there till now). But now i regret going to CBSE. Yup, I know Indus Valley Word School sparked out the smartness within me...or else I would not be able to use the keyboard also for typing this blog. But still it made me somewhat 'Casual' in life. The thing which I should have done was till Class-10, I should've studied in ICSE (I would have gone to some other school also), and then...CBSE!! In ICSE, no matter how much pressure I had, my base regarding Science would have been clear...I would have suffered the danger named 'Board Exams' also...but, then in 11-12 CBSE, everything would have been crystal clear for me-no tension for giving competitive exams further. But, as you know, what I wish for never happens...or else I would have not written all these blogs!!
And you know another thing....I am currently watching Anime once again during exam time.....the same mistake which I did during the pre-boards this year!! Sometimes, I think I am the one who is responsible for the problems I'm writing about in these blogs....no matter how much childish or matured I am. Anyways, as I said before, life is full of obstacles, and I've to take the challenge to overtake them. Perhaps, whatever I did or whatever happened with me in my life till now is for my good future only. Anyways, in Boards or Entrance exams, no CBSE or ICSE will matter, only our knowledge will.
