So..in the last blog, where was !? Oh yes! I remember..I was talking about how my life became crucial...even after my Grade-10 exams were over. Well, there were incidents knocking up one after the other. First incident happened on the midnight after my exams were over. You remember I was talking about a girl, junior to me, whom I proposed, and she was supposed to be my girlfriend very soon?! So, I was chatting with her on facebook...I was sure to catch up with her very soon. We chatted the whole night about exmas, life,etc. And then...the heartbreaking message came from her-'I'm going back to Kenya'.
Silence...silence surrounded me. It was like the world has been twisted. A whole lot of questions started appearing. She...she must be joking...how could she leave me like this? I have a crucial year in front...how could she leave me alone to suffer? Why? My love for that little girl wearing glasses started evolving....my emotions were not like this even for my parents also!! What's going with me? I was utterly confused.
I gave my reply-'Are you really leaving?'...I was waiting to hear a "No'...but it was a 'Yes'. And before I could think something, she texted me again-'Do you really love me?'...Bloody hell, she made me speechless. I just wished her 'Goodnight' and 'we'll talk about this later'. And I went to sleep...thinking about how the day went. I was so free that day because of exams were over...but on the other side, my mind was dominated with feelings about me and her. Will she really leave? Oh my Gosh!
Well, my whole one-month vacation went thinking about all this stuff...which I further realized to be stupid...very stupid it will be to fall in love with a girl junior to me...though my other friends have done such things. But, anyways, rather than those idiotic love crap I spent rest of my vacation roaming around here and there...I watched some new animes (including 'Avatar:The Last Airbender'...a 61-episode one which took almost 1 month for me to finish) also in my PC. My facebooking=ing habit also started increasing all of a sudden like 3 years ago when I first started doing FB. On the same time, my troubles started increasing when I was not getting proper books and tuitions for 11 & 12. My parents kept on suggesting some popular coaching centres like 'Aakash','Fiitjee','Vidyamandir',etc,...but I didn't like them 'cause of their fees and teaching pattern...though some of my friends went to those institutions. Finally, I joined a near-my-house tuition centre...but I don't know in future, will it benefit me or..? Books also we had to buy on our own. My 10-results were also unknown. Pressure of giving Entrance exam also was in my mind from that very moment. I was really tensed about my fututre So, in short, my life started sucking before the beginning of class-11 only.
And, finally, the day came, and Class-11 started with a big bang in my head (I already knew about that form the very beginning)---not a single chapter which I was able to understand. The never-done-before numericals in Physics, de-structuring chapter about the structure of atom in Chemistry, c++ programming in Computer ....Oh my God! And there would be three terms...and in final term, WHOLE SYLLABUS....!! I felt as if the world got twisted. Oh...and I forgot to say...my supposed-to-be girlfriend left to Kenya, before I could recover my Pressurizing shock. बाप रे!
But soon...I strengthen myself (which always I only do)..and I knew at first, I'll have certain problems like this...nothing to do, everyone would have. Then, I forgot to tell you about the new building of my school were the senior classrooms are there from now on.
And...crap! There is another subject which came to me as shit! Physical Education!! First of all, it's all about sports-my weakest subject, and very disgusting too, because why doe we need to play games in two crucial years of our life, that also Science...doesn't matter in Commerce & Humanities. And this subject is COMPULSORY...I mean, why the hell? In other schools, there's nothing like this, and there is no 2nd language(my scoring subject) And, the teachers also from the very first day started giving the crap-'If you don't like the stream...change it immediately!' Even, I also first thought of changing 2-3 times, but then, decided to stick in Science till term-1, because Commerce has Business & Accountancy, and Humanities has again those Social Science, which were once upon a time my favourite, but right now-crap! And, I also made a final decision of being Software Engineer in future (I don't know for how many days will it remain final, 'cause I can chanege like before), though my parents and relatives are still forcing me to study Biology and Medical, because 'Doctors get good salary/income'; but I didn't want to pressurize myself more, plus I had interest about Computers.
Well, my first few days went by this...and at the same time I turned 17, but who cares?! The only good thing about being 17 is that I learnt to cross the road ALONE, first time (tee hee). My mother also had a Gall bladder stone operation during my vacation, and during this time only, my class-10 results came out. It was published in the net, verrrrryyyyy lately after other schools results came out, and here's my result-
C.G.PA.-9.8 (i.e. 93.1%)
MATHS,COMPUTER,ENGLISH,HIND-A1
Shockingly, S..S.T-A1
But, Science-A2
I was really happy with such a great achievement, especially when my family members congratulated me.But, I was sad too...first of all, no C.G.P.A 10 and I got less on the subject which I'm studying now. But then I thought that even if I have taken Science, I have taken it to improve my performance in this subject. In my school, many got C.G.P.A. 10, even the most irritating friend of mine had also got the same as mine. But I knew in 11, nothing mattered...we were in a different level of studies. My problems started increasing when I'm unable to do the numericals of Physics in revision tests. Chemistry also kept on haunting me like hell. Computer & Maths seemed to be my saving grace in the upcoming first term exams. My practicals also started at the same time...while the Physics ones were a huge bore, Chemistry ones seemed to be very interesting; in computer, we had the hardworking programs to make. There were strict rules with our practical files also. I also started having timing problems in tuitions also.
Well...the blog became too long, right?! But what to do? This is the world I'm leaving through...everything is like a hocus-focus to me, where I really can't focus on anything. Anyway, my life was always like this. I could have written more about the Golden opportunities that i have missed including participation in Singing competition, and some big, vital but stupid mistakes like unknowingly deleting some photos & voice recordings from my phone, spending most of the time in my PC (like now) & phone, and mistakes in Physics & chemistry papers are nothing new. Let's see what happens next. But, for now, I am closing my blog saying that-whatever CHALLENGE...yes, nomatter what challenge is waititng for me next, I will face it...and nomatter how much tough it is...I'll not give up...and I'll 'try' to survive.
Silence...silence surrounded me. It was like the world has been twisted. A whole lot of questions started appearing. She...she must be joking...how could she leave me like this? I have a crucial year in front...how could she leave me alone to suffer? Why? My love for that little girl wearing glasses started evolving....my emotions were not like this even for my parents also!! What's going with me? I was utterly confused.
I gave my reply-'Are you really leaving?'...I was waiting to hear a "No'...but it was a 'Yes'. And before I could think something, she texted me again-'Do you really love me?'...Bloody hell, she made me speechless. I just wished her 'Goodnight' and 'we'll talk about this later'. And I went to sleep...thinking about how the day went. I was so free that day because of exams were over...but on the other side, my mind was dominated with feelings about me and her. Will she really leave? Oh my Gosh!
Well, my whole one-month vacation went thinking about all this stuff...which I further realized to be stupid...very stupid it will be to fall in love with a girl junior to me...though my other friends have done such things. But, anyways, rather than those idiotic love crap I spent rest of my vacation roaming around here and there...I watched some new animes (including 'Avatar:The Last Airbender'...a 61-episode one which took almost 1 month for me to finish) also in my PC. My facebooking=ing habit also started increasing all of a sudden like 3 years ago when I first started doing FB. On the same time, my troubles started increasing when I was not getting proper books and tuitions for 11 & 12. My parents kept on suggesting some popular coaching centres like 'Aakash','Fiitjee','Vidyamandir',etc,...but I didn't like them 'cause of their fees and teaching pattern...though some of my friends went to those institutions. Finally, I joined a near-my-house tuition centre...but I don't know in future, will it benefit me or..? Books also we had to buy on our own. My 10-results were also unknown. Pressure of giving Entrance exam also was in my mind from that very moment. I was really tensed about my fututre So, in short, my life started sucking before the beginning of class-11 only.
And, finally, the day came, and Class-11 started with a big bang in my head (I already knew about that form the very beginning)---not a single chapter which I was able to understand. The never-done-before numericals in Physics, de-structuring chapter about the structure of atom in Chemistry, c++ programming in Computer ....Oh my God! And there would be three terms...and in final term, WHOLE SYLLABUS....!! I felt as if the world got twisted. Oh...and I forgot to say...my supposed-to-be girlfriend left to Kenya, before I could recover my Pressurizing shock. बाप रे!
But soon...I strengthen myself (which always I only do)..and I knew at first, I'll have certain problems like this...nothing to do, everyone would have. Then, I forgot to tell you about the new building of my school were the senior classrooms are there from now on.
And...crap! There is another subject which came to me as shit! Physical Education!! First of all, it's all about sports-my weakest subject, and very disgusting too, because why doe we need to play games in two crucial years of our life, that also Science...doesn't matter in Commerce & Humanities. And this subject is COMPULSORY...I mean, why the hell? In other schools, there's nothing like this, and there is no 2nd language(my scoring subject) And, the teachers also from the very first day started giving the crap-'If you don't like the stream...change it immediately!' Even, I also first thought of changing 2-3 times, but then, decided to stick in Science till term-1, because Commerce has Business & Accountancy, and Humanities has again those Social Science, which were once upon a time my favourite, but right now-crap! And, I also made a final decision of being Software Engineer in future (I don't know for how many days will it remain final, 'cause I can chanege like before), though my parents and relatives are still forcing me to study Biology and Medical, because 'Doctors get good salary/income'; but I didn't want to pressurize myself more, plus I had interest about Computers.
Well, my first few days went by this...and at the same time I turned 17, but who cares?! The only good thing about being 17 is that I learnt to cross the road ALONE, first time (tee hee). My mother also had a Gall bladder stone operation during my vacation, and during this time only, my class-10 results came out. It was published in the net, verrrrryyyyy lately after other schools results came out, and here's my result-
C.G.PA.-9.8 (i.e. 93.1%)
MATHS,COMPUTER,ENGLISH,HIND-A1
Shockingly, S..S.T-A1
But, Science-A2
I was really happy with such a great achievement, especially when my family members congratulated me.But, I was sad too...first of all, no C.G.P.A 10 and I got less on the subject which I'm studying now. But then I thought that even if I have taken Science, I have taken it to improve my performance in this subject. In my school, many got C.G.P.A. 10, even the most irritating friend of mine had also got the same as mine. But I knew in 11, nothing mattered...we were in a different level of studies. My problems started increasing when I'm unable to do the numericals of Physics in revision tests. Chemistry also kept on haunting me like hell. Computer & Maths seemed to be my saving grace in the upcoming first term exams. My practicals also started at the same time...while the Physics ones were a huge bore, Chemistry ones seemed to be very interesting; in computer, we had the hardworking programs to make. There were strict rules with our practical files also. I also started having timing problems in tuitions also.
Well...the blog became too long, right?! But what to do? This is the world I'm leaving through...everything is like a hocus-focus to me, where I really can't focus on anything. Anyway, my life was always like this. I could have written more about the Golden opportunities that i have missed including participation in Singing competition, and some big, vital but stupid mistakes like unknowingly deleting some photos & voice recordings from my phone, spending most of the time in my PC (like now) & phone, and mistakes in Physics & chemistry papers are nothing new. Let's see what happens next. But, for now, I am closing my blog saying that-whatever CHALLENGE...yes, nomatter what challenge is waititng for me next, I will face it...and nomatter how much tough it is...I'll not give up...and I'll 'try' to survive.
